Faith is taking the first step, even when you don't see the whole staircase.

Life's a bitch

2011-12-19T22:12:00.000+08:00

Life's a bitch, that's all. I'm grounded.

Happy Joker Day

2011-12-19T01:20:00.001+08:00

Today's 19/12.
Happy birthday to my lovely bias, Yong Junhyung. <3

I love this guy so much. #HappyJokerDay ;)

Malacca

2011-12-19T00:33:00.001+08:00

So, I've decided to revive my blog. I guess I can't bear to leave it dying after 5 years of blogging.

Went to Malacca for the past 2 days with my childhood friend + her family. Thank God it was only 2d1n, I'm not sure if I can stand staying there any longer. It was kind of fun if it wasn't for the fucked up temper my parents had. Thanks to my ruined mood I didn't bother to snap much pictures. Lol sigh what a blog post this is.

So of course I took a picture of myself. It wouldn't be like me if I didn't, eh?

I was holding a box of chocolate donuts and now I'm feeling hungry.

I like this picture but I hate my clothes, I dressed way too causally because I thought we would have the time to change in the hotel. Who would've expected... -_-

Childhood friend and I

Me and....... a random boat out of a building?

I'm typing this post with no expression on my face. Yes, I'm very moody. And when I'm moody I tend to use alot of vulgar, so I might as well stop typing. P/S: I just want to be happy, lol. I don't know how difficult can it be.

Singapore Flyer

2011-10-28T00:09:00.006+08:00

Went on The Singapore Flyer with 3 Grace today! I swear it was super fun. It's a pity I didn't really enjoy much of the scenery because I was too busy taking pictures with almost everyone. Ha ha ha. Next time, yeap?

Random scenery pictures.

Aw man I think I look stupid here but I really love this picture.

With Ben!

I love 'em all. xx

C.I.P.

2011-10-24T20:22:00.001+08:00

Had CIP at Sundac today! It was really a wonderful experience.

I think the performance was abit fail but at least we managed to think up of songs and sing them at like, the very last minute. Hahah!

Ice-cream day out.

2011-10-23T00:30:00.000+08:00

HI.

So, I went out with Mummy today to city hall>esplandade>bugis>amk hub.
I swear it feels weird being at esplanade without my friends. But yeah, time will past real fast. I HOPE.

@ the Italian ice-cream shop!

Pistachio, vanilla & chocolate. WOOOO.

Bye EOY.

2011-10-12T23:39:00.004+08:00

Hey.

So... it's been a month since I last posted. Well, exams are over now so I'll probably have more spare time to spend here.

Pictures up are taken yesterday and yeah, being the cameraman, I'm not in the pictures.

I love every single one of them. :)

3Graceeeee♥

2011-08-30T00:36:00.000+08:00

Really emotional day today. Had bbq with the class, and yeah. It was awesome.
I shall let the photos do the talking, I'm way too lazy to type. Besides, a picture speaks a thousand words!

I heart 3 Grace! :)

Is this karma?

2011-08-27T15:01:00.004+08:00

Life has been... really fucked up I guess. So far in this month of August, I've been played, back stabbed, lied to, insulted, and all other stuffs you can imagine that will ever happen to a normal teenage girl. What's surprising is, I'm still surprised. I guess I believed in too much people too easily, and even when the truth is right smacked in my face, I still choose not to believe it and let myself drift into that twisted fantasy of mine. Which is undoubtedly, the total opposite of actual life. Honestly, who are the ones being REAL now, I have no fucking idea. Even my closest friends are turning into people I don't recognize. And I don't understand why.

So yeap, teachers' day is just round the corner, and I'd better start preparing those gifts I've been wanting to ever since the start of the year. Heheh, here's a few of my wonderful teachers:

Mr Aaron Phua, biology teacher.

Miss Neo, physical ed teacher.

Miss Harrington, co-form & history teacher.

Miss Pamelia Goh, social studies teacher.

Miss Manju, elementary & additional math teacher.

Miss Hoh, chemistry teacher.

Miss Low, geography teacher.

♥♥♥

That's the way I loved you

2011-08-13T13:18:00.005+08:00

Sooooo.... I've finally changed my blogskin (yes, like finally finally) because my common tests are over (yay) and linking back to the post I've posted during mye, I find it funny how the same things keep repeating over and over again during examinations.

READ IT HERE! :)

And I know I've screwed up almost every single one of my common tests except for English & Geography. I swear I thought I'll fail Chemistry & Emath, but thank God I passed. :) So that makes me a happy girl for now. I still think life's a chore.

This whole week has been a kinda dramatic (and bad?) week for me. Things changed & I think I've to get used to it. God never makes mistakes, and I'm pretty sure everything happens for a reason. So I'm just gonna make the best out of everything. :)

P/S: The weird (but good) thing is, I think I'm addicted to studying. HAHAH. K bye

Random!

2011-08-07T11:35:00.002+08:00

LOL I feel like going to Marble Slab Creamery again.

HUNGRYGIRL96 :( HAHAHA.

:D

2011-08-06T23:49:00.004+08:00

Hi, it's been a really longggggggg time since I've last updated. I hate everyday life. It's currently the national day & common tests period, and so far I've screwed up four common tests, which is a really big thing to me, because I told myself I'll study.

Well, of course I did, I revised, but it's kinda useless when I'm emotionally unstable and absolutely nothing will diffuse into my head.

Right now, I'm feeling really empty.

This world is really cruel.

Everyone is giving me the wrong signal, how the fuck am I supposed to know what are you people thinking? I don't know who's being true and who's being fake.

I'm not doubting anything, I'm just confused.

We both know it's wrong, don't we?

AND I can't help feeling like a replacement. Haha, I'm so sorry.

♥

2011-07-26T21:15:00.001+08:00

Day out with cousins last friday to Bugis.

Ate at Empire State.

*inserts many hearts

2 awesome cousins.

Uhm.. a heart?

Random shot by idk who. LOL

Hhs korkor's spaghetti. HAHAH it looks so -.-

END RESULT ^^

Mine! :D Ah, way too expensive for something I didn't really like lolol.

Group photo!

KOI

2011-07-19T20:23:00.003+08:00

Hi there, I want koi.

AMELIA'S BIRTHDAY

2011-07-16T21:17:00.008+08:00

Happy birthday to Amelia Toh! ^^

Awesome but not so productive day today, I guess. Spent all my money on food and food and food.

So, for Amelia's birthday barbecue. Some photos that I look extremely weird in but whatever.

Group photo taken by Steph! <3

Kelly.

With Denise and birthday girl hahahah.

Birthday girl with Mana.

And Jennifer.

Awesomeeeeeee stephy! <3

Denise looks so cute h3h3h3 and she's like hating this picture for idk what reason -_-?!?!??!

Amelia's cake! I said it looked like her and @#$%^@& hahahah.

I'm not in the mood to blog, so yeah, ending off with...

A group photo! Kthxbye.

Put your hands up.

2011-07-15T20:40:00.000+08:00

Hi, I realised I've been listening to the same song for the past 4 hours, and I didn't notice it, well, up till now maybe.

Many things have been happening in school, and this is like, the only place I can let everything out. Maybe some people will think that posting everything online isn't a really nice thing, but hey, I think hardly anyone reads my blog ever since I've started closing and opening it and letting it rot.

Everyone in the class has been saying that we were really BONDED during the taman negara camp, and everything just disappeared after that when the holiday starts and school reopens. SOME people say that we weren't bonded at all, we were just lying to ourselves and having selective thinking. Maybe. I don't know for sure, but everyone were really close when we're in taman, isn't that right? Well, it's a fact that everyone has their own cliques and only hang out within those cliques, which is one of the main reasons why our class isn't really bonded. But hey, which class is REALLY bonded? EVERYONE in EVERY class has their own cliques and it's not like there won't be any disagreements or whatsoever in the class. I seriously don't understand why we must be so upset that our class isn't very bonded. Personally, I really love 3 Grace. We might not be the best class ever, but it's definitely an awesome class.

Just my own thinking though, lol.

And anyway, I screwed chinese oral yesterday. WHO THE FUCK THINKS ABOUT THE TOILETS ALL THE TIME???

Faith

2011-07-11T22:02:00.001+08:00

Hi. I don't know why am I here, sitting at the table with my amath textbook opened in front of me and yet I'm not revising anything. I have no idea wtf my textbook is saying, so yeah, I've decided to flunk the test tomorrow. I'm starting to have more faith in everything slowly, and my stress is kinda like, reduced. Oh well, that doesn't mean I'll pass my amath test though, but I'm pretty sure I'll do well for social studies. Yup, I've like, two tests tomorrow so good luck to me.

Anyway, I wna rant here. Like, really really rant. Life in school has been pretty upsetting lately. Almost everyone around me have changed, and it feels like I don't know anyone anymore. I've different interests from my friends, and yup, seems like we've no common topics to talk about. I'm disagreeing with people about most things, and it's in my personality and zodiac that I really, really dislike disagreements. Not that I can do anything about it. But I'm not going to change myself just to fit in with others, that'll be so fake and not being myself at all.

I guess I'd better start working on my amath. It's time to "mug".

-_-

2011-07-01T22:21:00.000+08:00

Today's one of the suckiest days ever.

So yeah, I really feel like ignoring the whole world one day.

Imagine yourself talking to the person beside you, only for him/her to give you a fucked up reply or simply just the "I don't give a fuck" face. I know you're probably not interested in what I've to say, since we have different interests in certain things. But at least show some basic courtesy, will you? Tell me how would you like it if I did the same thing to you, yup? Won't you feel the slightest bit upset or even hurt? C'mon, I treat you like more than an average friend you know. I wouldn't care less otherwise.

And.

I bet on my whole life you don't ever have this feeling before. Obviously you only show concern to the friends who are closer to you, and couldn't give a damn about the rest. I mean like, yeah duh obviously everyone will care more about the people who are close to them, but you should at least care about your other friends, maybe not as much. However the feeling you're giving me is like you only care about certain people and it's getting really selfish if you didn't realise. -_- My gawd. It seems like you're treating others as a replacement.

K besides all these I'm actually really upset about other stuff too, like:

Not being able to see B2ST/go for their concert/fanmeet tomorrow.

But I know there's always another chance to, and it probably isn't such a good idea for me to be crazy about Junhyung when he's like, attached to Hara. (No link, but yeah it's just my thinking, alright? -_-)

Stop judging.

HEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLO.

2011-06-21T20:54:00.005+08:00

Hi, I'm finally updating my blog after sucha long, long time. Yes, I've been pretty lazy. :P

20th June

Had dinner with jy at Junction 8. Pizzzzzzza hut omg. She's richgirl96. :( Koi with her after that. Omg I've spent alot of money (especially on food) during this holiday. I'm fucking broke!!!

21st June

313 & Cineleisure with Leona, Pat & Joe! :D Walked around like some idiots (LOL) and movieeeee. Heheheh. Can't wait to meet Felicia during November omg!!!

HAHAHA MY BUTT LOL.

And I bought my B2ST ALBUM!!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

For the first time.

2011-05-28T15:47:00.015+08:00

4 days 3 nights trip at Taman Negara. I've learnt alot from this trip and experienced many things I'd never thought I would. Many of us in the class bonded alot, more than we ever thought we could. Last year when everyone knew which class we're in and who are in our class, we all thought 3G'11 would be a terrible class. But in the end, we're all wrong. We're the best class, with the best form and co-form teachers ever.

I LOVE YOU 3G'11 ♥

Don't give up on me baby

2011-05-28T13:20:00.001+08:00

Hello peeeeeopleeee ;) Even though I bet nobody reads my blog anymore. My eyes are DAMN BLUR just like my mind right now. Maybe I wore my contacts for too long for the past 4 days. Mummy asked me this morning why were my eyes so swollen and I didn't know what to answer her. Contacts wouldn't cause eyes to be swollen, but tears will. But obviously I can't tell her that. Anyway, part of me is super happy that I'm back in Singapore with the best weather, best food, and best toilets (LOL) but I really wish I'm still in Taman. With no troubles and no irritating parents. Imagine yourself being away from home and finally came back, only to get scolded. Really, I thought ppl say home is the warmest place in this world. Rubbish.

And I wanna do abseiling again! Super scary at first but it was damn fun hahaha.

I look really dumb here but nevermindddd, I like :)

How you love me now

2011-05-19T20:57:00.001+08:00

Hello ppl. Skipping schl today was kinda a not-so-wise choice but I didn't regret it anyway. I passed my first freaking biology test!!! Whether was it a class or common test, I've never passed a single bio test before. Till now. AND YES I AM FREAKING HAPPY. :) Even though it is just a borderline pass, but hey it's better than not passing it at all. I failed my amath by 5 marks though. Told ya it'll be a miracle if I passed... and I don't believe in miracles. Really, I don't. :) A tiny little bit disappointed with my chemistry, because I really did study hard for it after all. TONS of notes didn't help much but at least it wasn't really a borderline pass or anything. I don't like geography.

Everyone is so upset about their results blablabla. To me results aren't such a big deal and plus, I didn't study as hard as I should. So there really isn't anything for me to be upset about hehehe.

I kind of hate typing now.

T________________T

2011-05-18T20:53:00.001+08:00

Really feel like pouring my heart out there, but I guess it isn't really a very wise thing to do. I've decided that posting life issues online would just worsen things than they already are. Though right now I feel depressed and... totally fucked up like 123456978.

Anyway now that the examinations are over, results are one big scary thing. Probably more scary than the actual exams. Checking scripts in PHS are always conducted with all the classes taking the same paper together, either in the chapel basement or seminar room. And there's one thing that EVERY teacher has a problem with. They simply refuse to return us our exam papers and start by going through all the common mistakes we've made, expecting us to have super memory and remember every single question that appeared in the papers. Right.

Then they scare us by showing the percentage of people passing in each class. My class had a twenty-something percentage of people passing SS so it was quite scary. NO IT WAS REALLY SCARY. And of course.... I failed. Duh. Although it was actually surprising for me to fail SS (because I scored pretty well for all the SS tests I had so far) I'm gonna take this MYE as a wake-up call. A really big and huge W-A-K-E-U-P-C-A-L-L.

The other surprising thing for me is that I actually passed my EMATH PAPER 2. It was damn hard I swear, but hey I still passed. By 1%. LOL. Thank God. Then again it's just elementary mathematics, it'll be a real miracle if I passed additional math. Which I'm sure I won't. Heh.

It's doomsday tomorrow. Hehehe. FML

BIGBANG!

2011-05-16T10:21:00.000+08:00

Life sucks. Pretty much badly. Was supposed to go uniqlo today but never mind... Here's a picture of my big bang shirt. Hehehehe.

It's super big cause it's L size LOL but sometimes oversized tees are nice. I think. Okay I don't know what else to say -.- Not in the mood to blog so yeah. Byebye.

How could you be so heartless?

2011-05-15T22:12:00.000+08:00

Sigh. Why don't you people just kill me. I'd actually wanted to blog one whole long post because I was in a good mood and I actually HAD inspiration.

But someone killed it. Sigh. Nevermind. Bye.

Your guardian angel

2011-05-14T20:04:00.002+08:00

Hello world. Life sucks so much now that exams are over. Or... maybe not. But I think I'm addicted. To studying. Yeah, I know, like who the hell would believe that. Then again, I'm going to continue writing my Geography notes later on. AFTER MID YEAR. I've learnt my lesson. Studying last minute before the exams is seriously a big no-NO. So I'd thought why not I start right now, preparing for next term. HAHAHA I'm so studious I can't believe it myself. Anyway today's a wonderful day ♥ Luv going out with 'em so much even though yeah I do feel extra sometimes. HAHAHA.

Beastly is a nice movie. Go catch it!

Sunshine said I've a fetish for her. LOL. What's a fetish anyway.

♥

T_______T

2011-05-09T12:35:00.000+08:00

So much for 'spending your weekends wisely doing revision' I spent my weekends sleeping, eating, talking on the phone, on the computer, walking around the park doing nothing and... that's about everything. I've tried to start working on my amath lest I fail it again, but nothing makes sense to me and I am not going to cramp 5 months work of amath into my head in like a few hours. But I guess I have to. Maybe later... I'm procrastinating again.

I really shouldn't waste my time, and right here this second I'm wasting precious time... Grr okay I shall stop blogging. Byebyebye.

Let's have a heart to heart to heart talk.

2011-05-07T13:30:00.000+08:00

Life sucks, and then you die. Some random quote I saw on facebook multiple times. Yes, my life sucks pretty much. Nothing seems to be going my way (not like everything has to but just stop screwing up pleaseeee) It's so hard to smile nowadays.

Mid Year Examinations

2011-05-04T18:01:00.001+08:00

What's (are) the most unlucky thing/s that can ever happen to a person during an examination?

1. Your register number made you sit in one of the last rows OR at the corners of the classroom and there's no fan near you. Hot, stuffy environment... How the fuck are you supposed to concentrate??? That's why I say 3G rocks. We've extra 2 fans at opposite corners of the classroom thanks to Reuben's mum (yeah I really appreciate it alot) and that helped me a lot, because yes I'm suay enough to be sitting at the last row.

2. You get to sit on a broken chair during the exam. Hey, I can't even concentrate on lessons while sitting on a broken chair how the hell do you expect me to write a fucking chinese compo??? Or make that 2, because the other one is ying yong wen, which can also be counted as a compo. At first MLEE didn't allow me to change my chair with another one (nobody is using that chair that's why I want change one okay I'm not so bad lol) but ite she helped me change it uh so yeah THANK YOU MISS LEE! :) (Honestly I have no idea how the hell the person originally sitting at that seat managed to survive but yeah whatever)

3. While writing SS essays halfway, your pen ran out of ink. Okay lah this is stupid because I was actually doing my emath paper 1 when my pen decided to surrender :( But whatever I had my SS exam after that so yeah HAHAHA. I tried switching to the pen I used for every single essay/compo exam (any examination that requires you to write a lot) for the past 12345 years (That's when I was in primary 4) but I failed. I'm too used to using the 0.38 pen which is super ex and spoils super easily but I HAD NO CHOICE. Thank God I borrowed an extra pen from Stephanie before SS ^^

... And now as I'm about to start my emath paper 2 revision my pen decided 'not to return to its original state' and continue being stubborn and lazy. Fuck my pen lol I'm so lazy to get out and buy a new one -.- Mummy told me to buy 10 pens at once since they are always running out of ink. LOL!!! Okay I think I'm getting too noisy here -.- So yeah okay byebye I'm going to start doing my revision now (with another more reliable pen, of course) or get my ass out into the rain to buy a new pen. Goodbye.

Fight through the hurt.

2011-04-27T18:25:00.000+08:00

HEY. Life is not getting any better but... exams are coming soon! I have no idea why am I so happy at the idea of exams. Maybe 'cause I'm starting to like studying very, very much. Especially chemistry. Anyway... I'm still thinking whether should I go to Orchard right now or not. The rain out there is literally pouring. BUT I really want to get my baby (my mp3 lah LOL) asap. I've gotten my Bran New Kiss album yesterday like FINALLY, but being the clumsy me I dropped it and there's like a freaking dent at the side. Heart-pain much, but what's done cannot be undone. Fiona told me to hug it HAHA.

GTG. I think my dad's back. Bye! LOL.

Goodbye

2011-04-25T21:18:00.000+08:00

Hello! I passed my napfa test HAHAHA like finally passed everything w/o retesting anything for the very first time. Okay so I sucked at napfa ever since like when I was in primary 4. I've NEVER passed sbj w/o re-jumping again and again and again before passing till I was in secondary 2 (I suck at sports can? Lol) Anyway I'm improving lah -.- so I guess it's alright.

And Rui En won the best actress award omg. I KNEW SHE WILL! ♥ In your face, Jeanette Aw.

It's up to you and me.

2011-04-23T23:22:00.001+08:00

Hi I'm back to update this wordy space again HAHAHA. No pictures till I get my com back to its original state. Went to cwp with mummy today for her facial. Spent 4 hours browsing books at the library, drinking hot chocolate at mac, walked around cwp like an idiot, sat at the bus interchange, and standing at the sixth floor of woodlands civic centre looking down while talking on the phone. I'm crazy.

Anyway many people are getting shocked or 'disappointed' because I'm starting to listen to Justin Bieber again. HAHA I think his songs are actually not bad. 'One Less Lonely Girl' reminds me of someone hehee. I wonder if you still remember. (;

I've bought the 2 shirts I've been eying from Cotton On since like, forever, and I feel happy, I guess. Realised I've spent too much money today -.- And I broke my mp3. Yes I did. Wow, I know. Seriously felt like slapping myself, super heart pain can. Just hope that there's still warranty and stuff lol.

Hey I like Justin's voice. Alot.

Never knew that love could come and go just like that.

2011-04-23T12:35:00.000+08:00

Hai. Looking back on the past ten days or so, there's really a lot of self-reflecting that I need to do. Life at home is getting much better than it actually was, but I could still feel the slight hint of anger in daddy's voice whenever he speaks to me (which he, hardly does) and I don't have the courage to look at him in the eye. Anymore.

Well actually I'm not supposed to be updating this page but it's been so dead... And I figured out if I'm nice, I get to use the laptop during the weekends. When I'm supposed to be studying but, who cares. Maybe it's a good thing my desktop is as good as trash now 'cause I can't go on facebook/blogger, it's really distracting. BUT twitter and tumblr are as addictive as facebook. Whatever.

I bet if I sit here for any longer, mummy's going to flare up and bitch at me. Again. It's lunchtime anyway. I'll update whenever I can. Hehee.

Till then.

Why did we fight?

2011-04-05T20:14:00.001+08:00

Hello. I'll be eternally grateful if anyone ever visits my blog regularly and can STILL stand me. I mean like, my blog is either flooded with rants or kpop. And I do know that kpop doesn't interest everybody. Which actually makes me upset 'cause I can hardly go crazy with anyone about kpop. Except for ys, but he'll get irritated... Most of the time. The rest would just pretend that they give a damn and then give up pretending. Chua said something about tumblr this morning. "I wouldn't follow your tumblr, I won't want my dashboard to be flooded with kpop." Well, I need no followers who can't appreciate kpop. I'm saying this generally, not aiming it at her. I don't mind anyway. 73 followers isn't alot, but at least I know they put up with what I reblog... and I love every single one of them. Every. Single. One.

Not like Harry Potter doesn't appear on my dash every now and then. I don't like HP. Sorry HP fans. Well hey, at least I don't critise HP or anything. I even stop critising Justin Bieber after knowing how it feels like to have your idol(s) being critised. But Rebecca Black is another issue because I don't think anyone actually LIKES RB...

Watched the replay of Mubank, performances of MBLAQ and BIGBANG. (Y) My dad said GD is crazy for smashing that guitar. Wanted to strangle my dad so much lololol. Never. Ever. Insult. My. Idols. (At least not in front of me lah wtf.)

I can't get Joon's dance out of my head.

Do i look like i give a fuck?

2011-04-04T19:35:00.000+08:00

Got back SS test today, and my results sucked. Argh @#$%^&*! Darren said I made SS sound easy but it's actually not lah. But still so fucked up 'cause I hoped for a better mark. Then again I didn't study for it at all so I guess it's still okay. 9/13 ^^

Aiya idw talk about the rest of my day. Fucked up much. Whatever man.

I don't know what to do anymore.

2011-04-03T18:37:00.008+08:00

This could go on and on forever. Nothing will change. History will repeat itself. And there's nothing I can do, as much as I want to. You'll still be the same and I'll never change. We can compromise as long as we want to, but one day we won't be able to take it. Any longer.

Here's a picture I found on tumblr:

He's actually kind of pretty.

0330

2011-04-03T13:58:00.001+08:00

Yesterday - Had BBQ at Mana's place. ♥ her house hahaha. Especially the scenery at night. And those wind you can feel when you open the windows... Never felt it for years already. :(

I'm going to start doing my homework really, really soon (provided my bed doesn't distract me) and study for my tests. There's still a couple of things on my shopping list. Like school shoes and chinese e-dictionary. O: I need them asap but my parents are still sleeping wtf.

Don't know why I'm drifting back into my "I love k-pop and only k-pop, everything else can fuck off and die" mood. It's no good sigh. I'll never be able to study this way.

Someone snap me out of my dream and into reality.

U-KISS

2011-04-01T09:59:00.000+08:00

Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh. I miss the original U-KISS. :(

The new U-KISS:

:(

Nothing lasts forever.

2011-03-30T17:36:00.001+08:00

Don't you miss how close we used to be? (:

Yesterday was the 29th. A thrilling, sad, happy, bittersweet day. Met Jovis and traveled around like some idiots. There's an English test tomorrow, and Chinese, A/Emath, Biology tests are next week. Time to mug. (Y)(Y)

I think it's amazing how I fall for the same lies, over and over again.

Takin' back my love.

2011-03-28T20:47:00.000+08:00

I have no idea what should I post about today. -_____- Reading thru blog archives made me feel so..... I seriously wonder how did I manage to post every single day three years ago and how did I ever force myself upload over-edited pictures. Like adding words and graphics to every single photo... seriously? I bet I really changed alot, and it's true. I did.

:O It's gonna be a short post today since I've lots of things undone. Tomorrow is gna be exciting.

C-C-A ♥

2011-03-27T19:00:00.014+08:00

HELLO I LOVE MY DAY TODAY!

Met up with Amelia at Causeway Point. It's been A YEAR since we've went out tgt... and what's more, it's at CAUSEWAY which reminds me of RADIX. Argh, always felt like crying whenever I think about Radix. Anyway there's another school concert next year so I've more that to look forward to. ^^

Wanted to take neoprints but the Jewella machine is spoiled -.- Trained to Northpoint and met Clarette. 3 of us at Northpoint again like a year ago. Camwhored in the toilet after that like some kids LOL.

I can see my ring in the last photo that I took of myself. HAHAHA. I ♥ going out with them.

FACEBOOK STATUS:
Edward Cullen: is bored :(
- Jasper: Where's Bella?
- Edward: On her period.
- Bella: Don't just tell everyone that I'm on my period! :/
- Edward: Why? You are.
- Bella: Well I don't tell everyone you sparkle like a fucking fairy in the sun or that you won't fuck my brains out until we're married even though I'm so up for it. You're not a real vampire! You're just a fucking sparkly emo BITCH!
Bella has changed her relationship status to single.
- Jacob likes this.

I hope you remember.

2011-03-26T22:15:00.004+08:00

Don't you hate it when someone makes you feel so small, so... vulnerable. The moment you know they prefer another person to you, and you know you'll never be good enough. You can never match up to that person. In terms of personality, studies and... family background. I know I wasn't compared with that particular person, but comparisons can't be avoided. Probably... that person can make you happier, or at least, make your life easier.

Honestly, I hate this feeling. I wouldn't choose to feel this way either if I had the choice.

Watched Sucker Punch today. Pretty much a nice movie o: but I don't like the ending at all with all my favourite characters dead. I've been watching so much movies lately. I Am Number Four, Red Riding Hood, World Invasion: Battle Los Angeles and now this. o:

Yesssss I ♥ Vanessa Hudgens. (I really, really miss her hsm times) And omgomg I'm so going to watch the movie 'Beastly' starring Vanessa and Alex Pettyfer.

Ending with two words...

Life sucks.

Exactly how I feel.

2011-03-25T21:06:00.005+08:00

Yesterday

2011-03-24T21:22:00.007+08:00

Watched World Invasion: BATTLE LOS ANGELES few days back. Nice movie, but I didn't really understand it. LOL. Would definitely watch it again if I have the chance. Still, I prefer Red Riding Hood. I like stories more. Hahaha.

Today.

Long day, had many boring lessons and stuff. A psychologist came for a talk for whitespace. Body image, self-confidence, anorexia nervosa, and stuff.

Went to amk with Stephanie to collect lenses after school. Note to self: Pink lens are scary in photos.

Random screenshot taken in private server. (: Twinnnnnnnn! ^^

Why

2011-03-20T15:28:00.003+08:00

If you’re too busy to call me, I’ll understand. If you dont have time to check on me, I’ll understand. If you always cancel our date, i’ll understand. If you keep throwing tantrums, I’ll understand. If you keep ignoring me, I’ll understand. But if I stop loving you, it’s your turn to understand.

You said you wanted me to stay, but you did nothing to prove it. How can you care if I don't cross your mind?

Every night she cries and dies a little more inside

2011-03-18T21:12:00.006+08:00

A picture with Clarette taken on Wednesday @ Mediacorp. (:

Worrying is something people tend to do and it's something really bad for health. What's done cannot be undone, and all that's left to do is to look on the bright side and hope for the best. ^^^^ Imma be a happy girl and concentrate on what I should be concentrating on instead of thinking about nonsense all day long and being upset over things.

Today was a great day! ^^ Lunch-ed at Northpoint w some people. It's been a really long time since we last met up. Watched 'Red Riding Hood' at J8 while the others went to hub to watch another movie.

It's a really nice movie to me but some thought otherwise.

And lastly, Term 2 timetables are out and yes. A/Emath everyday and 2 hours of A/Emath on Thursday. :(

Yes I know my timetable is pretty!

And oh yes. Here's a picture of my second piercing hehehe. I know it's no big deal but I still can't believe I got it since mummy was always against it.

Can't wait for tomorrow! ^^^^^^

Everything will be okay in the end.

2011-03-17T19:38:00.001+08:00

I feel exhausted, but I don't feel like closing my eyes. I'm hungry, but I have no appetite. I feel like drinking something, but I'm scared I'll throw up. I'm depressed but I don't feel like crying. I feel like I'm dead but I'm still alive.

This feeling sucks.

Your faith walks on broken glass

2011-03-12T21:02:00.003+08:00

I have v. little faith in myself right now. I can't believe this but yeah.

She is everywhere I go, everyone I see
Winter's gone and I still can't breathe
Summer's on the way, at least that's what they say
But these clouds won't leave

Lights go on again

2011-03-11T21:17:00.003+08:00

Ah I feel so dead right now. Everyone in my life is being such a bitch. Skipped Cross Country today because it was drizzling and I know I would get my shoes muddy if I went. Bused down to Thomson to find lovelies and ate ice-cream. Some idiot wouldn't pick up my call but yeah, I forgive you♥

Oh and please, please, please, please pray for the people in Japan and all around the world. Many people started wondering if 2012 is real after all, but nope I'm never going to believe in that bullshit. Screw the movie.

Someday I wna travel there.

Choice.

2011-03-10T17:04:00.002+08:00

Hello people (all my readers are dead ever since I was lazy to update my blog properly) so if there's even any left..

ICT is super boring/tiring/blablabla but considering the fact that I can go on Facebook/listen to songs/eat/sleep/walk around like an idiot/jump around like a zombie in my room, I guess it's okay. Even though there are many people out there screaming that they HATE ICT so badly on Facebook. For example:

(taken from Marilyn's Facebook)

Had chinese oral yesterday in the middle of ICT day (which was why I didn't submit Social Studies on time but who cares) and I think I flunked it. I said wrongly/skipped at least 10 strange chinese characters in the passage and kept going like "Erm... like..." during the conversation. I didn't know what the fuck I should say about 义工 -________-!!! But LMZ said my performance was "not bad". I think he meant "very bad" but he didn't want to disappoint me so yeah...

FUCK CHINESE!

P/S: Preshigh won northvista in bball finals and we're officially northzone champions! :D (Y)

I hope.

2011-03-03T18:00:00.004+08:00

I made a mistake, and I regretted. This time, I really want to make everything right. I tried to make it up to you, but deep down we both know it will never be enough, until the day you finally trust me. I can't take another shock again. Sometimes, I wish you'd knew how I feel. But there's a catch too - I would never understand how YOU feel. It's unfair to you, but life is always unfair.

February SUCKED. It's the first time I really don't know what to do.

There is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we’re apart, I’ll always be with you.

Whatever I said, I meant every word. Up to you to believe me, because there really isn't anything else I can do.

aurevoir

2011-03-01T21:01:00.001+08:00

(via oohplease)

Got back almost all common test papers, failed a handful of subjects and the rest were all just border line passes. Thanks to relationship problems, I wasn't concentrating on CA1 at all. I feel so stressed now, but there's nothing much I can really do. I failed add math, biology and higher chinese. Border line passes for emath, geog and chem. All that's left now are ss and english. Time to bang the wall again.

Remember me tonight, when you're asleep.

2011-02-28T21:57:00.001+08:00

Q: How long would you take to forget me?
A: ?????

A random question I thought up of when I was showering. Yes, I do alot of thinking in the shower. If someone ever answered me "forever" I think I would fucking bitch slap him/her.

*I deleted everything

Because of you

2011-02-26T20:19:00.006+08:00

HELLOMYAWESOMEREADERS. (If there's still any left.)
Flag day is awesome and tiring. I can't wait for MY flag day!!! :D Even though I fail rejection... But I'm pretty sure people will donate to me because I'M SO FRIENDLY LOL. (Haahaa yes I know I look super funny in the picture above but I likey!)

I can't wait to watch I AM NUMBER FOUR heheheheeeeee. (Y)(Y)!!

I hope you enjoy disappointment

2011-02-19T18:50:00.001+08:00

(via thevampiredrinkscoke)

Hello world.

I... don't know what to post about. Nobody is reading my blog anymore because I'm sho lazy to update properly or blog hop to tag others.

I had my first Ben & Jerry ice-cream today...? Lol I'm sho pathetic.

Grenade

2011-02-18T22:02:00.003+08:00

What's wrong with doing all these just to get a little attention from you? But you didn't care at all, did you?

I've many wonderful friends. LTA trip was boring and awesome at the same time and.... fuck TWC. Me no want suspension.

Best valentine's day ever

2011-02-14T20:50:00.006+08:00

Happy valentine's day! ♥

Mana, Stephanie, Clarette, Jocelia, Fiona, Joyce, AmandaW, Evangeline, Kelly, Evan, Zachary and love. Thank y'all. :D

Hello

2011-02-13T14:24:00.001+08:00

Maybe I should close my blog, but I don't know hahaha. Tons of memories piled up in just this page.

"It takes a bitch to know a bitch."

With or without you.

2011-02-12T23:48:00.003+08:00

I took this picture myself and I'm so proud. Hehe. Anyway the picture quality sucks because I was in a rush and I anyhow took the picture lolol.

Today was pretty amazing though I didn't get to take any nice photos but there's always a next time when I'll look better right?! ^^ I think I'm addicted to using my eyeliner in photos which isn't a very good thing lol. I don't wanna be a make-up freak. Not at this age anyway.

Cya~

Nothing lasts forever.

2011-02-11T20:46:00.002+08:00

(via poeticheartache)

Being random 'cause I am random. HAHAHA.

Miss Chin was insulting/praising me indirectly this morning during AMATH lesson. 'EVEN wy has a notebook to take notes! You don't even have your worksheet (blablabla)...' Argh, don't compare ME to others. But still, at least Miss Chin noticed! (: Her attitude towards me improved somehow, after two years. :)

Stayed in the school canteen today until five plus with EVANGELINE, AMELIA and CLARETTE. ♥ It's been a long time since I've stayed back in school just to talk. ;) and yeah I do know I changed alot, I miss who I used to be too. I want the old me back, but it's just so hard.

Don't you miss what we used to be.

2011-02-08T16:33:00.000+08:00

Time flies really, really fast.

(Source: tswift)
TAYLOR SWIFT IS IN SINGAPORE BTW. ;) I feel like stalking her!

Emath during first period was fun 'cause we had group work. ;) Am doing to start working on my homework and study Chemistry later! I'm so going to ace my common tests. And yeah, those class tests I failed were a WAKE UP CALL for me. I'll study hard.

There's a world out there that we should see.

2011-02-07T19:11:00.002+08:00

Life has been pretty much messed up. And I'm the one who landed myself in the situation I'm in now. Pretend I never existed if that's the best for you, but it'll take forever for me to forget you.

Brought my new purple bag to school today. (: Sunshine said I looked like a little girl with that bag -_______- I'm not sure whether is it a good thing or not LOL. Had a really hard time hiding my painted nails and I felt so fucked up with them (I removed my nail polish the first thing I came home) Miss Chin gave me a sweet for answering a question in class and boy am I surprised. O:

I miss primary school.

First love.

2011-02-05T12:55:00.010+08:00

Went to DeniseL's house with Jiwon, Xinying, Jennifer and KennethK today. The rest didn't wna take pictures with me !@#$%^! Bobian, only one picture to post. Heheheh. :D Happy Chinese New Year! (: it's ending already, eh?

P/S: I have no mood to go to school tomorrow, and I can't wait for 9th. Somebodeh will be back from Japan (:

Maybe this is my wishful thinking...

2011-02-04T17:00:00.002+08:00

Played around with the webcam thingy while using laptop. O:

Anywayyyyy, happy chinese new year! ^^ Even though it isn't happy at all for me. Life totally sucked, and I wished you guys -yeah, you know who you are, i miss you all- didn't have to go overseas. Jiwon is coming back tomorrow but I have to wait till thursday for that someone to be back ): And Clarette is only coming back on tuesday. I feel like killing myself T_________T

Till then, goodbye.

2011-02-01T19:02:00.001+08:00

Everyone is leaving me.

I'll post when I have the mood to, probably during CNY IF I snap any photos. Cya.

Sorry, I was being random.

2011-01-30T16:04:00.009+08:00

(via lovequotesrus)
I'm not perfect. I have my insecurities, my doubts, and I trust the wrong people all the time. I give up, I don't want to try, I don't dare to try. I lie, I cry easily, I hurt the people I loved the most, I can't make everyone happy at the same time. I don't know how to cherish my family or my life. I don't have enough faith in myself or anyone else. I don't believe what I hear, I don't believe what I see. I only believe what I believe in, I'm stubborn. I'm childish, unreasonable. You know my name, but you don't know my story. You don't know what I've been through and you will never understand. Don't try to change me. Take me as I am, or watch me as I go.

I'll go back in time and change it, but I can't.

2011-01-28T16:20:00.001+08:00

Missed practice for the first time in 2011 today. Byebye 100% attendance!

English test was not really easy today because I couldn't concentrate much. I KNOW I SHOULDN'T BE LETTING ANYTHING AFFECT ME... but what AW said this morning was making me go crazy. I really don't like fake hopes. Really. Sat at the back with Stephy for Biology and I miss sitting with her :/ Gah I don't like the sitting arrangement STILL.

Just a few more hours to TOMORROW. :)

(via dreamographer-s)

I'm sorry for that night.

2011-01-27T18:59:00.003+08:00

Life have been pretty much fucked up these days. Changed sitting arrangements and I'm all the way at the front alone. Kind of, anyway. It's actually a good thing Darren sits behind me or I'm sure I'll be bored to death. Haven't been doing my homework like I'm supposed to. Seriously tired every single day. Failed audition on Monday while he passed... I have no idea what else to do. Really.

I have no mood for school/practice tomorrow. But I can't wait for Saturday.

(via chronicles-of-romance)

My hair is ruined now but I guess I'll live with it.

I'd go back to December all the time.

2011-01-21T23:16:00.001+08:00

TGIF.

Today was a super long and tiring day for me. :( Had amath first thing in the morning and CKK was in a bad mood. PE after that, released late and was late for Chinese. TWC shouted at me for nothing -.- pms your head la, pregnant also don't need scream at us right. Waited for miss HYT during recess at chem lab but she never appeared so chem practical was postponed. Went to find CKK after that at staff room, got scolded by her AGAIN -.- but it wasn't that bad. Met MLEE outside hall and she told us our sitting arrangement is going to change. FML FUCK NO WAY. _|_

Had another hour of Chinese after assembly but time passed really fast O: Practice after that, total waste of time -.- we could've spent more time on the set piece... Seriously?

(via thevampiredrinkscoke)

Tired of waiting.

2011-01-20T18:53:00.004+08:00

I'VE LOST ALL MY DAILY TAGGERS. (This shows that lesser people are reading my blog... Which I have no idea whether is it a good or bad thing.) Anyway chemistry test sucked today. :( It will be a MIRACLE if I'd actually pass. My paper chromatography experiment FAILED which is so upsetting since it's my first chem experiment this year.

(via atasteoffaith)

Before sex, you help each other get naked. After sex, you only dress yourself. Moral of the story; in life, no one helps you once you're fucked.

Please don't ever.

2011-01-19T21:39:00.001+08:00

Life is so bloody stressful. :( I've practices THRICE a week now, and there are tests almost EVERYDAY starting from tomorrow and I haven't started studying. TOO BAD I WANTED TO UPDATE. Procrastination fjuwehuijvop IT KILLS.

Anyway today was pretty much being a bitch. Chapel in the morning was awesome and that's the only good part. HURHUR I love chapel. Lent my AMATH book to 'braveheart' and ended up not having any textbook to do my homework... Chemistry test tomorrow and I haven't started revising. BLOODY HELL WHY ISN'T MY CHEM TEACHER MR FAEEZ?!?!?!

P/S: Oh yeah I'm a Virgo (now, if I actually believe which I don't) thanks to #Ophiuchus. But no way, I'm forever a Libra.

(via poeticheartache)

gah.

2011-01-18T22:51:00.001+08:00

CCA. HOMEWORK. CLASS TESTS. SLEEPLESS NIGHTS. CCA. HOMEWORK. CLASS TESTS. SLEEPLESS NIGHTS.

Will update when I can, till then. :)

I'll back off so you can live better

2011-01-16T17:43:00.003+08:00

I promise that this will be the last time you’ll see me. I won’t come back. I won’t put you through anything like this again. You can go on with your life without any more interference from me. It will be as if I’d never existed.

— (Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.71)

— (via rubycarbuncle)

Sometimes I wonder what will happen if I'd never existed. Maybe everything will go right and you both would be happy. I'd rather you be happy even if I'm not. I don't expect anything either.

Slept for 4 hours for the first time in my whole life wtf. Maybe accept for the day at camp last year.. Wait I slept 5hours that day -_______- Okay never mind. I need sleeping pills. And crying at night is the most stupid thing to do 'cause my eyes would be puffy the next day. Yuck.

You're probably not going to see this so what I just typed don't really matter hahahah.

I don't know what got into me.

If you want to, I can save you

2011-01-15T18:59:00.009+08:00

Never fall for a person who already has his or her eyes set on someone else. You'll only hurt yourself by doing so.

Totally fm.... nvm I'm not allowed to say it. :]

Met up with XB and studied at Starbucks. Finished 90 percent of my emath homework. Went on maple for 5 minutes but didn't have the mood. I don't like those posts on that wall. Fking irritating if you ask me. But I guess I can't blame anyone. Just look at the amount of those kind of posts on my wall. Fuck -.-

P/S: That girl will never realise how lucky she is.

2 of my fave songs by tswift:
Teardrops on My Guitar & Invisible. 'cause they totally explains how I feel lol.. :]

Takin' back my love.

2011-01-14T21:07:00.004+08:00

I love his hair.

Sore throat for the whole day and it didn't feel good. Survived 2 whole hours of hcl, and 3.5 hours of practice.... with this kind of voice. Sat with QJ during choir and got scolded when I talk to JT. Uhm, whatever. Finished choice piece and feeling quite accomplished and upset at the same time. Miss Y, your words are hurtful. Really. Anyway I'm aiming for 90% and abv attendance this year and I hope I won't disappoint myself. H3h3h3

J, it's our 245th day together. Thanks for all the bad and good memories. I'll be keeping them in my mind forever.

I give it all up.

2011-01-13T18:59:00.001+08:00

I wanna party like it's nobody's business.

Broke my sony walkman today, so totally fml.

Had Amath first thing in the morning and I'm glad I actually know how to answer CKK when she shoot me a question. Totally aiming at me and C, but whatever, at least we didn't siasuey ourselves. But still, bitch much. I don't understand her "good intentions", if she even has them anyway. Totally slept thru EL 'cause it was so effing boring and how I wished my EL teacher is Miss T or Mrs G. Had height & weight during PE, I grew one point fucking five cm. However according to everyone the school's ruler is not accurate, blablabla and it took away two cm from everyone... which means I grew three point five cm which I think it's not possible.

Waited for J after school for a effing long time with C. Ate takoyaki for lunch at school and trained to our usual station with C. Sat at some random block and this guy came and asked for her number. Too bad too ugly LOL no offence seriously.

Oh and. I'm a pervert! Bye.

I'm so sorry 나 때문에 이젠

2011-01-12T19:36:00.001+08:00

Facebook is lagging really badly today. Anyway, hi. School went quite well today, boring as usual. I dislike my bio teacher but I like bio. Maybe I'm just ~~racist~~ or something. School was short today 'cause of chapel in the morning. I love chapel services. Language classes all the way after recess and went to the molly, mrs H was so excited about it for the whole week.

Talked with F, and realised it was really easy and natural to talk to her. I'm not a social freak so I do feel uncomfortable around some people. Whoops. Tomorrow is R's birthday and I have no eye deer what to get for him. ):

Went to hub after school with Y, and I got my shiny pink wrapping paper. -Stares at the paper beside me which is so effing crumpled- Ohwell. I had no choice.

Ohyeah, gave CW her present today and she told me she likes it. I'm happy 'cause it's the first birthday gift I ever gave out this year.

Accidentally uninstalled maplesea omg fml. But... I think it's a sign to show that I really should concentrate on studying.

Tata.

Genie.

2011-01-09T23:04:00.002+08:00

Today was a sucky day. Thanks for adding on to my already bad day, and leaving me with tears and all those good memories that will actually tear me apart. And I'm like, whatever, bitch.

Nothing cheers me up like k-pop.

— (via poppindragon)

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I love my biases.

Audition tmrw, wish me luck. Even thou I know I'll never make it.

Oppa hates you~

2011-01-08T10:39:00.006+08:00

— (via dreamographer-s)

Sorry, I left you and your bullshit back in 2010.
— (via envy-is-beauty )

Went to cut my hair after 7 months of not touching my hair except for my fringe at all. Looked so much better hahaha.

Spammed my tumblr with more k-pop today and I felt very happy.

— (via poppindragon)

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The first gif is Dongho, and that gif made me laugh like zxczxczxc. The rest are Junhyung, together with Jiyeon in the second and third picture. Junhyung's potential girlfriend is so totally Jiyeon. It's actually a good thing I like her.

Emotions will never lie to you.

2011-01-07T20:27:00.001+08:00

New subjects. More homework. Class tests. Common tests. SYF. MYE. Common tests again. EOY. Chinese 'O' level.

Stress or what? -__________- I have totally nothing to look forward to now except for CNY. Which won't really be an enjoyable one since common tests are straight after that. I'll never do well for SS.

— (via chronicles-of-romance)

"I don’t need a friend who changes when I change and who nods when I nod. My shadow does that much better."
— (Source: raindropsonredroses, via chronicles-of-romance)

Met Ben today and it was awkward :O Anyway, life suckzxc and I hate upper secondary.

Run devil devil run run

2011-01-06T22:01:00.000+08:00

K-pop totally disappeared from my dash today -.-

Today was fucked up like any other school days will be. Upper secondary life really suck and I hate all those homework I get everyday. I dont understand a single shit in Amath and I cant do a single question given as homework. Time to continue my homework now and fuck this shit, seriously.

— (via staravia)

At least this made me smile for a little while. Aw how I love Buttercup hahaha.

Tell me your wish.

2011-01-05T23:00:00.001+08:00

Hi, 2nd day of school wasn't any better. First official lesson of the year was A/EMATH. Better than I expected for the first lesson though.

I don't like my CC teacher and don't ask me why, there's just this thing I dislike alot about her. Yuck x10000000. Maybe it's her attitude or that stuck-up face she has all the time.

EL was last period and it made me miss Ms TGH x123456789. Same classroom as last year for EL and I was hoping Ms TGH would appear any moment :(

— (via -bomtori)

Tae Yeon has the looks and the talent, no wonder she's the leader. :O

Why are you being like this?

2011-01-04T17:05:00.001+08:00

First day of school sucked, boring like shit. I dont like our FT and tomorrow lessons are going to start. Did something scary today -.- Dont think I'll repeat it again lol. Many upsetting things happened and yeah... it wasn't a very good first day of secondary three.

Went to comics connection after school and stayed there for like thirty minutes but ended up buying nothing LOL. I feel so proud of myself cause I managed to stop myself from wasting money ^^ Jiwon bought the Jessica name tag thou -.- I want the Taeyeon name tag but it's oos wtf.

I dont know why I'm still here blogging when I'm supposed to be rushing my homework -.- Sucks. Upper secondary is so fucking stressful.

Spam you with T-ARA, SHINee and SNSD.

— (via -bomtori)

— (via fatlittlebitch)

— (via -bomtori)

I'm random. Sorry~

I'll be back.

2011-01-03T17:39:00.003+08:00

Hello. xD

School is gonna start tmrw and I doubt I will be updating much hahahax. SUCKS RIGHT >( Anyway, I'll be back~ Listen to the song for now LOLOLOL

Ciaos!

I go crazy because of you.

2011-01-03T00:13:00.004+08:00

Bye 2010 and hello 2011~

In 2010...
I’ve loved, I’ve been loved.
I’ve lost the game.
I’ve said goodbye to some people.
I’ve been lied to multiple times, and lies were spread about me.
I met some amazing people, then I was let down by some of them.
I got to know some of the most amazing people better.
I’ve been talking to certain people every day, and now we don’t know each other anymore basically.
I have found some true friends, who will last for a lifetime (at least I hope so).

"Throughout the year of 2010, I've fallen for the most unexpected people. I've lied to the people that cared the most. I've lost friends who I thought I never would. I've trusted the wrong people. I've made mistakes only to make me stronger. I've learned so many things this year."
— (via rainbowsandhippos)

Deleted yesterday's RUSHED post because... well, it was rushed. People in Malaysia starts school tmr and I'm upset because half of my friends would not be online tmr morning, or worse, for the whole day. And school for me starts on Tuesday like omg. I'm still in the holiday mood...

New year resolution: Study really hard and CONCENTRATE. Fuck care bitchy unreasonable teachers. You-know-who.

Trained down all the way to Serangoon to get my SHINee posters today. Jonghyun and Key are extremely cute in the posters, aw.

I'm into SNSD, T-ARA, KARA and B2ST lately. Hehehe and I found a picture of my 2 biases together. (Look at the 2nd picture omg aw so cute)

— (via fuckyeahjiyeon)

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— (via snsd-fanatist)

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I heart Jiyeon, Junhyung, Tiffany, Taeyeon and Sunny.

P/S: Finished 2 chinese compo, 1 english book review and Geography. Awesome or what?

SCREAM

2010-12-30T18:26:00.000+08:00

Say hi to my son ^^^^ LOL

Today... Went to school with Clarette to get school books, but the cf files + organisers hadn't arrive yet and we're like !@#$%^&!* we just wasted our time fol. Cleared my locker like finally and she bought her uniform lol. Trained to hub and ate my Hokkaido ice-cream and I'm happy xD On the train back to khatib/yishun there were like this boy who kept staring at us which is so disgustingzxc LOL.

School is reopening soon and I hadn't really finish up my homework. Or should I say I didn't really start yet. Omgee die die die -_____________-

— (via deceitfuldeath)

Definitely.

If today was a fairytale...

2010-12-29T19:20:00.004+08:00

Practice went quite well today. Now all I wanna focus on is to actually do well for my studies AND syf. It's really time I slap myself awake and stop playing around as if I have all the time in the world. Time to stop procrastinating but..... I guess I still am. HAHAHA. Received my (late) Christmas present from Jiwonnie today and I'M SO FREAKING HAPPY. My son is so cuteeeee ^^. (Will post up pictures ASAP!!!)

I've been wanting a baby pooh for a long long time already and now I finally got it HAHAHAHA.

P/S: I ♥ Taylor Swift.

— (via catchthatfallingstar)

Love Story - You and him like each other but you aren’t allowed to date

The Way I Loved You - You love your new boyfriend, but you can’t get over how things were with your old one

Invisible - You like him but he likes her, and she’ll never like him, and you do

Fifteen - You believed everything he said, and now you realize that young love doesn’t last

Should’ve Said No - He cheated on you, and she was not worth it, and he’ll never have you back

A Place In This World - You just want to fit in

Forever & Always - You and him went from being perfect to horrible so quickly

Tell Me Why - If he loves you then why does he like to hurt you?

I’m Only Me When I’m With You - He’s the only person you can be yourself around

Teardrops on My Guitar -You want him so bad, but he only sees you as the girl he talks about his girlfriend with

Mary’s Song - Our love is everlasting

Today Was A Fairytale - That was the best date of your life

Fearless - With him, you’re not afraid to do anything

White Horse - He broke your heart, and you won’t forgive him

The Outside - You don’t fit in in his world

Jump Then Fall - You fell for him, now he just needs to fall for you?

You Belong With Me - You’re so much better for him than she is

Special.

2010-12-28T20:07:00.001+08:00

Went out to SP today and met Jiayi and Yohanna. Ate Sakae after so many months of planning wheee. Full like fuck now. Just so happened that Clarette went to SP too and talked to her for like 5 minutes hahaha.

Some of the plates were cleared before I could take a picture of ALL the plates. Ohwell. The ice-cream was naise.

Taylor Swift is so chio omgee :')

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I think I saw you in my dreams you were stitching up the seams on every broken promise that your body couldn’t keep.
- La Dispute “Such Small Hands” (via mysweetheart)

Besides eating sushi at Sakae there was nothing else to do so I was like -__________- but all of a sudden the song Soom (by Beast) started playing and I was like !@#$%^&!:D Followed by Shock, Special and Take Care Of My Girlfriend (Say No) which are all by Beast and I was even more hyper @#$%^!:D Jiayi and Yohanna were .__________. And they went like "Let's ignore her (me)". SAD RIGHT. :(

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^^^^^^^^^^

Again and again and again and again..

2010-12-27T18:11:00.005+08:00

I'll post up a screenshot everyday until the day I quit maple when school starts. Hah.

Not-so-nice things happened today,and nothing seems to be going well. I'd better watch my way if I don't wanna get hurt. Anyway, ate lunch at Pastamania after practice with my Jiwon,and then went to hunt for my Christmas pressie. It's gonna be a late one,aw. I love receiving presents but Jiwon hardly give me any surprise present or something -________- Disappointing,huh?

Food spam (I'm hungry):

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And:

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Aww my favourite princess is so cute hahaha. JiYeon♥

Honestly sometimes I don't know if I could bring myself to trust you again...

How many sorries have you said but didn't mean it at all? How many empty promises have you made and broke them all? How many chances have I given you? How many times did you make me upset? How many times have I let everything rest?

"One day, she’s gonna stop chasing you in circles, and at that moment, you’re gonna wish you had let her catch you."
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Forever more.

2010-12-26T16:54:00.004+08:00

Boring day today to the max,and there's practice tomorrow fml. I've not finish my chinese compo yet,and I'm not in the mood to. Fuck everything,fuck my life. At least I'm gonna see my Jiwonnie tomorrow,I guess.

Seeing you upset makes me upset too and I have no fucking idea why. It's not like you're a very important person to me(actually you are) but we're not that close either(like we used to) and I hate you(but I still care).

Changed blogsong ytd night,nice song alright. If you even understand the lyrics at all,that is.

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My cute dongho hahaha.

"I love that "in the beginning" feeling where everything is perfect. You like them. They like you. Texting twenty four seven. Saying good morning, saying goodnight. Then you start using cute little pet names. Then it gets to the awkward stage where you're not sure exactly what you are. Then once you figure it out, it all goes down hill from there. All the excitement is gone. All the passion is wasted. Everything you once were has just faded to nothing."
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Santa Claus is coming to town.

2010-12-25T23:03:00.001+08:00

Merry Christmas! And yup, don't forget the true meaning of Christmas. It's the birth of Christ. Hehehe ^^

There's not much of a seasonal feeling this year but never mind. Forgive and forget is the most important thing. Hahahaha! Yep so ate ice-cream (as requested by me LOL) and went Christmas shopping today with mummy. Bought 3 crop tees from Cotton onbody, my nail art set and 2 bracelets at Far east. I'm happy kkkkkkkk.

Random pictures of the purple Christmas tree (I LOVE PURPLE FYI):

And a super random picture of me snapped by mum when I was admiring my ice-cream LOL:

Okay don't laugh............... Anyway I ran into a Sec4 senior at orchard today and she smiled at me weeeeeee. I used to think she was unfriendly but I guess I was wrong. HAHAHAH.

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G-Dragon look so effing cute here omgee.

"I’m scared I won’t add up to your expectations. I’m not perfect, I’m not gorgeous, I don’t have the prettiest smile or the most banging body. I’m not going to be cute every second of the day & I’m not always going to look my greatest. I’m not always going to know the right thing to say & the right time to say it. I am very emotional & I do have pretty bad moodswings. I usually over react over dumb little things & cry over nothing. I’m afraid I won’t add up to your ex girlfriend, but I am willing to try my hardest. I get jealous but that only proves that I care enough not to lose you. I make assumptions & I will argue until I get my point across. I’m impatient, insecure & at times, selfish - but I’m trusting you with something that I know you can break. I’m going to trust you with everything I’ve got & put my heart out for everyone to see. I’m going to accept you for the person you are & love you for the person you help me to be. so if you choose to love me, then love me for me - for who I am, for what I hope to become, for the drama that you’re going to have to go through & for the flaws I come with."
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Hohoho! ☻

What you mean to me.

2010-12-24T14:18:00.003+08:00

Unfamiliar classmates. Screwed up strange teachers. Weird classroom. Late recesses. Delayed dismissal times. How more fucked up can 2011 be?

I'll just hope that you'll treat me as a normal student, and not hold anything against me. It's obvious that you're fucking biased and you dislike me alot, but whatever. I'm unlucky enough to have you as one of my subject teachers next year. Still, you're a really great teacher who is really good at teaching, but I hope you won't give me that "special treatment" of yours anymore. I will be a good student and hopefully I won't cause any problems for you.

Anyway, happy birthday to my dearest best friend Jiayi a.k.a Charis. No more long dedications because I've repeated all the same things oh so many times. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ^^

Park Ji Yeon (T-ara)spam:

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I think they both look good together ^^

Gave mummy her pressie just now and she liked it weeeeee ^^ Gna be eating ice-cream tmrw cause I feel like it. :O Ohwellllll. Merry xmas ^^

Emotions will never lie to you.

2010-12-23T22:42:00.000+08:00

Go and fuck yourself. Lousiest, dumbest and the most childish reason I've ever heard of.

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Aw my dongho. So effing cute pleaseeee.

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Fuck unreasonable shit. Stop abusing their authority. I don't give a fuck.
P/S: Why are you so disgusting? Yuck.

Fuck.

2010-12-23T11:01:00.000+08:00

I really wanted to be friends again. I really wanted to start everything all over. But it's that attitude and that twisted way of thinking of yours that made everything worse than it already was. Believe me or not, it's up to you. Somehow, I still hope that the you I used to know is still somewhere inside you. You changed alot y'know?

I love just the way you are.

2010-12-22T17:09:00.003+08:00

Missed choir today due to some reasons. Rashes are starting to appear again, and I need my medicine. :( But I've ran out of them. Ohwell.

Christmas is around the corner hehehe but this year there is no xmas feeling at all.

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Christmas wishlist:

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Yeah, I'm kinda in love with necklaces, rings and bracelets (omg, especially bracelets!) nowadays. Do get me nail polishes (from thefaceshop or skinfood please) too if you're going to give me a xmas present. Hehehe.

#787

2010-12-21T11:36:00.003+08:00

Went to Clarette's house today and watched her on her private server. Boring to the max if you ask me. I managed to finish my chem worksheet though.

Christmas wishlist:

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Personal bias:

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Also met up with J, nice hair colour by the way. Choir is tomorrow, and it starts at 9am like what the fuck. I'm tired. :/

#786

2010-12-20T16:08:00.001+08:00

Heeeeeeeellllo people. And yeah, YOU. If you're still stalking my blog, shame on you. YOU should know that I'm talking about you. Heheheeeee ^^

Had choir practice in the morning, did revoicing and I'm so haaaapppy I didn't get critised or anything. I'm staying in Altos by the way, which is a very good thing if you ask me. After choir ate pep lunch with my personal charmer (LOL) He is sucha natural charmerrrrrrrr ^^ So cute. LOL k whatever. Trained down to NP and I spent like 30 minutes in comic connection staring at k-pop stuff (obviously) but ended up not buying anything. I COULDN'T FIND ANY B2ST PHOTO CARD. All I see were SNSD. And SNSD. AND SNSD.

I regretted whatever I did few days ago and I really need to learn how to cherish, yeah? ^^

"Throughout the year of 2010, I've fallen for the most unexpected people. I've lied to the people that cared the most. I've lost friends who I thought I never would. I've trusted the wrong people. I've made mistakes only to make me stronger. I've learned so many things this year."
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#785

2010-12-19T23:37:00.003+08:00

HappyBirthday Yong JunHyung! ♥

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18 more minutes till his birthday end. Aw~

#784

2010-12-17T15:13:00.002+08:00

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You are disgusting and I was stupid enough to believe you. Obviously you're the one who is a flirt and many people agreed with that. But someone said something that really made my day. 1 nerd 1 fat, disgusting. LOL

This was so bloody meant for you. ^^^^^^

Okay whatever nao. Tomorrow is like cousin's birthday but I dont feel like going srsly. I'm gna be so extra and left out please LOL. I don't fit in with my relatives :/

Whatever fml hahaha ^^^^^^^^^
It's also someone's birthday tmrw! Awwwwwwww. HAHAHA k la byebye.

#783

2010-12-14T21:18:00.005+08:00

Life sucks when you're me. :)
(Tumblr spam first.)

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“I want you to still love me. I want you to still need me, and for you to regret the choice you made to leave me, everyday. I want you to be miserable, and finally realize that I was the best thing that ever happened to you. I want you to have a breakdown. I want you to want me, to beg for me on bent knee.”
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“You can’t describe the feeling of being in love - when you meet someone who makes you a better person.” - Zac Efron.
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I can never explain why I ♥ kpop so much.
Ohyeah. Happy 7th month darling. :) Never knew we could last this long.

Went out to hub today, didnt take any pictures, looked super cui, had a bad talk, I dont know how to explain.

Dont wanna elaborate on anything.
P/S: Hey you, I'm sorry.